why money will never make you feel complete

Hi guys,  

There's no point denying it. We live in times of greed and consumerism. 

People want power, money and all sorts of material things and the funny part is, they think that these things will truly make them happy! 

I too, was guilty of thinking this way in the past.

There was a moment in time when I got to see ''the good life''. I got to experience what it's like to feel powerful and respected and be able to afford nice things. And I kind of lost my sanity then.

My ego became a superego that doubled in power. My spending got out of control. I must admit that I had been extremely happy at the time and felt like I had my life together and I was on the perfect career path.

By no means do I want you to think that I was either super wealthy or stuck-up at the time. However, my standard of living had improved greatly and so did my status.

I truly believe that anyone who had known me or is still an important part of my life, would've noticed these changes.

That being said, I have never acted conceited or vain in front of my friends and family because, despite all of the changes, deep down was my true self which was fighting this horrible alter ego of mine.

This change only lasted for a couple of months. In fact, I believe it had continued for two or three months. And then I became very sick. 

It hit me out of nowhere and in no way was it foreseeable. I ended up in hospital in severe pain and I was stuck there for days. 

At times when the painkillers were working, I got a chance to evaluate my life and think some things through.

And this is when it all came to me. I realised that I had been so busy and stressed out that I failed to notice my progressing transformation into a different person that I did not like.

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I truly believe that the physical and emotional suffering I had experienced in the hospital happened for a reason.

It was a wake-up call. The ultimate sign that I must go back to being my old self and to make me realise, once and for all, that power and money will never make me truly happy. 

Not me. Not you. Not anyone. 

I mean, how can we ever be truly content if we let our happiness depend on numbers? Numbers are infinite so how can there ever be enough? 

I'm not going to include any cheesy - although relevant - cliches in this post because I think that they have been mentioned by online influencers, bloggers and celebrities too many times and they feel super overused to me.

What I do want to do though, is to bring you to a grim place - but only for a couple of seconds! 

It will be worth it as it will hopefully convince you that your soul is more valuable than the contents of your wallet. 

Imagine that it's your last day on earth. 

You are laying on your bed and feeling very peaceful. You are ready to head into the white light.

Now tell me, what do you think of? What do you want to remember at this particular moment?

Is it the time you travelled to Tibet with your friends and meditated with real monks?  Are you going back to the day when you met your soulmate for the very first time? Or maybe, it's the day you gave birth and welcomed a tiny human into your world? 

These are the kinds of moments we live for. And in your very last moments, you certainly will not be looking back at the time you bought a designer bag that you really liked. 

As always, thank you for sticking with me till the end. I really hope this entry made you feel some way! Hopefully, it's a positive feeling. 

Money is important. Unfortunately, we always did and probably always will need it to live. But what we don't need are greed and consumerism. We need humanity. 

- Paula ♥